{"id":21118,"date":"2026-04-04T02:06:25","date_gmt":"2026-04-04T07:06:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/?p=21118"},"modified":"2026-04-04T02:06:26","modified_gmt":"2026-04-04T07:06:26","slug":"i-dove-down-my-mental-lake-fear-and-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/2026\/04\/04\/i-dove-down-my-mental-lake-fear-and-love\/","title":{"rendered":"I dove down my mental lake fear and love:"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7893.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"683\" src=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7893-1024x683.jpg\" alt=\"first fear then under it love:\" class=\"wp-image-21119\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7893-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7893-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7893-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7893-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7893.jpg 1600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">first fear then under it love:<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7898.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"683\" src=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7898-1024x683.jpg\" alt=\"I could see you,\" class=\"wp-image-21120\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7898-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7898-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7898-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7898-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7898.jpg 1600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">I could see you,<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7923.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"683\" src=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7923-1024x683.jpg\" alt=\"Brilliance, at the bottom. Trust you\" class=\"wp-image-21121\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7923-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7923-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7923-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7923-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7923.jpg 1600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Brilliance, at the bottom. Trust you<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"683\" src=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929-1024x683.jpg\" alt=\"stillness in the last red inside place. \u2014Jean Valentine\" class=\"wp-image-21122\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929.jpg 1600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">stillness in the last red inside place.<br\/><em>\u2014Jean Valentine<\/em><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":21122,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-21118","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DSCF7929.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21118","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=21118"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21118\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":21123,"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/21118\/revisions\/21123"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/21122"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=21118"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=21118"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tom-lehr.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=21118"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}